Every time a pseudo-life changing event is in the works-- and let's face it, that's about once a year with me-- I get so excited about the new stuff that I start to ignore what's going on right now. Especially when it comes to a big move, when I should be spending more time with the family and/or friends I'm about to leave, I tend to spend more time deliberating over the logistics of the move instead. I try to coordinate events and times to meet up with everyone, but when plans fall through, I'm happily distracted by sketching out the layout of my new place and mentally decorating it.
It's never until the new wears off, usually about 2-3 months after the pseudo-life changing event, that I start to appreciate the situation I just left. Whether it was a job, apartment, state, hair color, whatever, I often don't appreciate it till it's gone. Not to say the new things aren't awesome, cause most of the time they are. It makes me wonder, though, if half the reason I change things up so often is because I love the excitement that comes with change. Don't get me wrong-- sometimes it's actually that the previous situation sucked. Not to unbearable levels, but levels of suckiness enough to justify the effort it takes to change them. (See: Camden) Sometimes, it's been my whole you-only-live-once motto kicking in. (See: 2 stints in Manhattan) Often, it's because I'm not where I want to be, either physically or metaphorically speaking, and life is too short to wait around when you come to that realization.
NC has been great for many reasons, and not so great for some, too. Getting emails about the impending awesomeness that awaits back in Gainesville has gotten me super hyped up for fall. And not just because of football, I promise! (Though, yes, that's part of the exciting stuff.) I'm excited to hang out with the people in my cohort and the 2nd years in our program. I'm excited about going back to class. I'm excited about working in the AAC (talk about creepy-in-a-good-way foreshadowing). I'm excited about my new place (no roommates this time! no offense... :) ). I'm excited about writing papers and reading new textbooks. I'm excited to plan my summer internship (Helsinki or Italy... Helsinki or Italy...). I'm not excited about loans, but honestly, they're so not bad it's almost ridiculous. I'm excited for everything that's coming with going back to my home state & my alma mater for grad school. Now for the next 29 days, I have to remember to appreciate everything in Raleigh that's also awesome before I leave it till Christmas break.
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